So not to just drown my self in a vodka tonic (part of the issue HA HA) I am using this to vent and clear my head!
So I do the show, get skinnier than I have ever been in my adult life and then get pissed and rebel at the hard work that it requires. Here's the conversation in my head "I look great! Why do I have to lose more? What do you mean I didn't win! Don't these people realize where I have come from? Why have I chosen to do this and make what I have achieved not enough?" And on and on and on. These thoughts go great with a glass of red wine and bread dipped in olive oil!
So 5 freaking inches - it has come from the cookies I ate at break everyday when I was out of town, all of the alcohol I have consumed lately, the bread things like sandwiches, bagels, and muffins. I could go on and on and on!
I have managed to set a gym schedule and successfully complete it each day so far! That is progress in itself. And I am managing my food a bit better - we have lunch at a Pita Jungle today and I have been scouring their nutritional information to see what I can eat to be within a good range.
My other ah-ha moment is I require goals! The first goal that got me started on the weight loss path was wanting another baby and not wanting the complications in pregnancy being overweight can contribute. That was a HUGE goal and I had a ton of motivation to keep me going! And then I had Matthew and the next goal was a half marathon. That was good for a while until my knee decided that it was not for me! And then the bodybuilding show..... And I did that before I really should have - wasn't quite lean enough. So what's next???? I have chosen another natural bodybuilding show in October! The ABA show October 23 in Yuma, AZ. I want to be at 12% body fat and place in the top 2! So there it is! And as a reward as I melt back down, I am going to pick 3 new swim suits for the competition! I already have one in mind! So a chance to strut my stuff combined with shopping and a few nights out of town just might be the motivation I need!
So the goal is to weigh 135 and have 12% body fat by October 16th, 2010! That is a safe 1.13lbs to loose a week!
The steps to reach my goal I am taking this week are working out (3 day split strenght training & Cardio) Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. Cheat meals are allowed in 2 meals and alcohol is allowed during those cheats ONLY!
Stay tuned.....
